Monday, February 8, 2016

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I always wonder how people can give away a animal that loves them, only to replace them with another that they may think is BETTER.  See my heart does not work that way.  If I love someone and I have a place in their family then I will always feel those feeling, and have that place.  I guess though life does not work that way for everyone.

 If you could take a person to the shelter, that is where I would find myself today.  Left at the door. Behind.  Cos BETTER has come along.

Today I feel like those senior dogs must feel who have loved a family all their lives, and given their whole heart and wakes up to find see themselves left behind.  Lost, and alone, and hurt.

When I was a little girl my grandma told me I always wore my heart on my sleeve, and I didn't understand at the time what she meant.  Now that I am old and grown up I am actually as she said.  I wish sometimes my heart could be in a protected case, safe and distant, yeah sometimes I do wish THAT. 

People can be so toxic to us, even the ones we love the hardest, the ones who nurture us, and teach us about life when we are growing up.  I always try to figure out when one of my furry kids go to the heavens above what lesson I was to learned from having them, and then losing them, it helps me feel a little more sane, so this time I am also asking myself what lesson I am supposed to be learning from this OTHER kind of loss, and why there even needed to be one.

I know you are all shaking your heads and wondering what the heck this is all about, mostly its about me just needing to write words down, cos that helps me start to heal. 

I do want you all to know that you are a total different reality when it comes to the word family.  If someone would look FAMILY up in the dictionary it would be a picture of you.

I am lucky to have you.
deb

27 comments:

  1. Hi Deb
    You said it well. I agree that it makes no sense to me either.
    Katherine (Noodles)

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  2. Sometimes there is no understanding how others think

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  3. Dearest Momma, did I mention that I luffs you? Cos you nose I dos....luffs you loads and loads!
    Lots of luffs and hugs to you
    Loves and licky kisses
    Princess Leah xxx

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  4. I posted a chapter from Saving Grace for you on the blog. I've been whee you are, and this chapter is about looking back and seeing what I indeed gained from it in the long run. Hugs my friend The Johnson family

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  5. We feel the exact same way that you do. Our furkids are for life!

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  6. Whoever "replaced" you with someone NOT better is as big a jerk as the people who abandon their elderly pets. Sending extra hugs, dog snuggles & cat cuddles your way!

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  7. I am not sure what is happening, but you have my email if you want to chat a little less publically. I've been through it all, and sometimes it helps to talk to someone who has been there.

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  8. I have always said, family is who you pick. Sending you extra hugs today.

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  9. You will ALWAYS have a place in our blogging family - and we all know how filled with love for ALL it is. Hugs to you today.

    Woos- Ciara and Lightning and Mom

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  10. Sorry you're having a shitty day, sending lots of hugs.

    Aroo to you,
    Sully and Robin

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  11. I am right there with you with my heart my sleeve! I sometimes wish I wasn't so sensitive, but then again I wouldn't want to be one of those people who could throw away pets or someone who is unkind to others. Hang in there. XOXO

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  12. Sounds like you're having 'one of those days'. We're hoping there are some extra special pug hugs for you.

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  13. Huuuuuugs, huuuuugs, huuuugs and sloppy kisses from Mum and me!!!!!!

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  14. Mom Kim here - that is kinda like what so many businesses do - replace that which works just fine and has been in place for years, for a newer model. But back to our seniors - they deserve our respect and we owe them the loyalty and trustworthiness that they have shown us over the years - absolutely nothing less. Like you, those people who turn in their seniors for a younger version - I too cannot figure that out. Those people say they love their dog (the senior) and think of it as one of the family - NO! That is NOT the way you treat a family member. Looking at Lord Shiloh and Lady Shasta curled up on the sofa, snoozing - I could no more "replace" either of them than I could cut off my own hand. I'm afraid my heart is worn out on my sleeve too - I have lost count how many times it has been wounded. And as far as some of those well meaning family members being toxic - I know how that works too - I "love it" when they say they only have MY best interests in mind when actually that is true IF my best interests align with THEIR best interests for me (and that continues today even at my 55+ years). You go ahead and write about whatever it is that you need to write about. I do that too as you have probably read. Yes, writing down on paper (or the computer) what we have inside of us, does get the healing going.

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  15. We agree with you,, and yes,, its good to write the words down.
    love
    tweedles

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  16. I sometimes wish my heart had such a protection suit like my phone... so all sad and bad things would bounce off... hugs to you and I hope there is a little sunray between all this dark clouds too...

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  17. I so know what you are saying, Deb. I think some of us love so hard and fierce, that our hearts do spill out on your sleaves. But, when we love that deep, we can't help but be hurt because we put so much of ourselves into the love we share. Continue to love and write. Dust your fanny and heart off and continue being the wonderful person that you are.

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  18. We see this a lot in rescue, with dogs that have been loving and loyal their whole lives just left scared and alone. We try not to think about the horrible people who put them there, but just focus on making their new lives with US the best that can be.

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  19. Did you see our post on Feb. 1 about the cocker spaniel named Cookie who was 15 when her humans left her at a shelter and went home with a younger dog? If you know cockers, then you know they grieve when left alone, which is why we always have two or three to keep each other company when we humans have to be away. That just about broke our hearts, especially since Cookie looked so much like our patron saint, Miss Charisma. Luckily Cookie was taken in by a foster family, is being treated for her medical problems and has many offers to adopt her.

    We hope you are not sad for too long.

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  20. Oh, Stella Rose I am so sorry.

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  21. We don't know who or what but we send a warm hug! You should not feel you're being left at the shelter, even in thought.

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  22. Sending you lots of love!!!!! Hope you know that even though we haven't been around as much since my Mom had her surgery and lost a few of her "marbles" you are in our thoughts and prayers every day.

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