Nola has a giveaway today of four angry birds. Sometimes I feel like an angry bird towards my dumb brother Sammer. I wanted to let you guys know that I am feeling better and sometimes I forget to be mad, and the sadness creeps in. I piled all of Sammer's toys in my bed, and I sometimes lay on them, and other times I shake the poop out of them. Mom and Dad talk a little more about Sammer now and how much they were blessed to have him in their lives. I was blessed too but I am still mad. Yesterday I almost walked to his grave but I stopped and turned back into the yard. That must be step #9 and I am still at step #2. I wonder if the rainbow bridge is decorated like our Christmas tree, and maybe I should send Sammer and Turd a card. Turd's would say I love you much and forever. Sammer's would say, I have all your toys now, so hahaha...I will give them back to you though if you could come see me.
Aww...hugs. Keep shaking those toys until the stuffing comes out.
ReplyDeleteYEP givin stuffs a good stiff Shake really helps. It is good that They are talkin about Sammers, too.
ReplyDeleteI think a good shake is definitely a big help with your steps. You'll get there. Big boxer kisses to you.
ReplyDeleteStella dear we hope you feel less and less like an angry bird and more and more like a mellow one who can sit back and enjoy sweet memories. It will take time but step by step we know you will get there. Take Care. We feel for you and we understand. Life sometimes is full of if only or but if. Alawys the hardest.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes Molly
Still thinking about you guys. I think writing your siblings a card sounds like a great idea.
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Christy
Hi Stella
ReplyDeleteI agree with Angel Payton's momma - send Trudie and Sam a card to express how much you really love them. It will help you heal.
Love Noodles
Oh yes I think shaking the toys is a wonderful thing to do and so is sleeping on them. And sending them a card is a wonderful idea. One day at a time my friend, one day at a time.
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Goose
Howdy Stella Rose, you just keep on with any old thoughts that pop into your head. Don't worry if its bad or good, it will sort itself out. It's all right little mate. Just takes time. If you feel yucky, just go give your mum and dad a snuggle. Thinking of you all. No worries, and love, Stella and Rory
ReplyDeleteStella Rose you are a strong gal and we know you laying on the toys makes you feel close to Sammer. His smell is probably still on them...Mom holds Dad's shirt in bed while he is away for the same reason. We like what you would write in the xmas cards...very cute. Keep chugging along.
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Jenn and the girls
Oh Stella you are being very brave and strong. We are thinking of you. Playing with Sammers toys and smelling them is a great way to remember them
ReplyDeleteurban hounds
You be strong Ms. Stella Rose
ReplyDeleteBenny & Lily
Stella, you will always miss and think of Sammers. But one day the tear drops will be smaller.
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Murphy & Stanley
I think your taking one step at a time- and that is the way it should be.
ReplyDeleteI do think you should send them a card. And of course there is a tree decorated at the Rainbow Bridge- because there is so much love up there- thats why,.
love
tweedles
Stella, we are sure Sammer will have lot's of present and will get to meet the real Santa at rainbow bridge. Each day will get easier for you darling :) We are always thinking of you xx00xx
ReplyDeleteMollie and Alfie
Definitely send Sammer & Turd a card, I know they would like that. We think the Christmas tree at the Bridge is decorated with pictures of all the their loved ones, so that means there is picture of cute little you on it too!
ReplyDeleteWe think you're taking all of the right steps, one at a time. No need to rush little Love.
♥♥♥
Meredith & Scarlet
Oh Stella, I think Turd and Sammer are right there celebrating the season with you, you just cannot see them.
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Sweet William The Scot
We are thinking about you Stella and we are hoping that Santa will bring you a brother or sister for Christmas ... then you won't be so lonely!
ReplyDeleteMaybe you can put a Christmas wreath on Trudie's and Sam's graves .....
Love Zoe, Peyton, Webster, Liberty & Whitney
Oh Stella. You be as mad as you can. Shake Sammer's toys to bits. Get it out.
ReplyDeleteI wanted to come hug you,,,,, and just sit beside you,,,,
ReplyDeleteyou always talk from your heart--- and I wanted to let you know-- I am listening.
love
tweedles
Hi there,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. Sammer seemed to be awesome. I am sure he is happy and in a better place now. Hopefully, we will all join him there some day. I am a 1.5 year old pug myself and this incident has taught my humans to be even more extra cautious but like you said in one of your previous posts, somethings are just... unexplainable and we don't know why. Please let us know if we can help heal in any way. Our hearts go out to the pug and your entire family, humans and furries alike.
Love, Licks and Drools,
Bunk the Pug.
We were thinking of you today Stella Rose. Just wanted to say Hi and hope you are doing OK
ReplyDeletelots of pughugs,
Bailey, Hazel & Greta
You and your family have been in our thoughts. I keep remembering how devastated I was, how we all were, when we lost Lad. Lad was only seven years old when he died. He had cancer. I tried everything I could to save him, but it just spread. Sometimes I feel sad, remembering what he went through while I was trying to save him. He went through two surgeries, and twice daily injections. I had to learn how to catheterize him, because he lost his ability to urinate. But the canine oncologist was hoping that the anti-cancer drugs, that he taught me to inject, would shrink the cancer. It didn't happen, and after all that fighting, we had to let Lad go anyway. He was losing his joy, and life was becoming too painful for him. I have never spoken about this, but I wanted to share it with you. Like Lad, Sammer left you when he was too young. And his time with you was way too short. But at least he didn't suffer, and he is at peace. Maybe he can hang out with our Lad at the bridge, waiting for us to come find them one day. But I wanted you to know that I get it, I know how you are feeling. And it will get better, after enough time has passed. Until then, you are in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. :)
ReplyDeleteOh poor Stella!!! Your post brings tears to my eyes :( Maybe sending a card will help you feel a little better.
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