LONG enough to have a baby. 9 months. 9 months ago today our Daddy had a bad accident at work. Our lives have changed a lot. We didn't even get a baby out of 9 months instead we got Dad, which is a good thing. Changes can be good but they can be hard also. Hard is hard, not easy.
Our house has seen lots of weird furniture in 9 months. A hospital bed, walker, shower chair, potty, cooling machine and now a mechanical Frankenstein chair that moves dads arm. Weirdo stuff. Oh yeah, we have a back brace and arm sling upstairs in the junk room now. We hope no one ever needs it again.
Somedays are blue colored for our dad. He loves to fish and visit the woods, that has stopped. He can watch the grandpeeps fishing but watching is just that.........watching. No driving ALLOWED. That's pretty hard for Dad, imagine your life not behind the wheel for a long time. I asked Dad if I could drive him around, but he said no.
Some of Dad's bones are healed as good as they will ever be in his spine, good is not BEST, it is just good.
Dad goes to PT 5 days a week now.......when he comes home he is grouchy and in pain, later he watches the +4 and he laughs. Laughing is good.
Sometimes it is hard for us to not jump up on Dad cos we are so excited about seeing him, its hard to learn the new rules at our house, even for smart pugs, and a smart mom. Hard not easy.
Mom did not know caregiving was so hard. She admires anyone who has taken care of loved ones, in much worse situations then herself. It does take a toll though. Feelings start to creep into your life and you don't even realize it until you let them in. Sadness, depression, anger..........tiredness. Even to tired to type our blog. To tired to think. Emotions bounce around like a little cat ball..........
This week mom and I are hitting the road, we think it will be the best medicine in the world. Expect her to cry and hug on you. Blogville has been her savings grace.
So when she gets back, rested up, 9 months will be behind Dad and her. Its all gravy after this.....we will get to back to blogging and laughing ..................we will be back ...........the three little pugs, wienie and +4.