You know in the movies sometimes when something heartbreaking happens you get a second chance, a rewind, a do-over, well I want one also. I know it sounds childish, and selfish (when there are bigger and much worse things happening in the world) but I can't change how my heart feels. Butch is stuck on "I can't believe he is gone" and Stella is very very sad. I am not sure what breaks my heart worse, knowing Sammer is gone or watching Stella suffer. Its true how in one minute your whole life changes. I always believed we would have Sammer much longer in our lives. Stella has lost her guardian, her griffen, her gargoyle. Sammer has been with Stella Rose since she was 6 months old and she is looking all over for him. I thought if I took her back out to see his grave she would realize that he lives there now, but so far nothing has worked. Tomorrow is the first day she will be alone, and I am worried about her. Thank you all so much for your kind comments. Isn't it funny (and wonderful) that I haven't met any of you but yet you took the time to let us know you care. I think my friends here are afraid to call and check on us since it happened cos I must be weird about how much I care about our furfamily...I don't know.