Sunday, November 25, 2012

We were praying for a do over

You know in the movies sometimes when something heartbreaking happens you get a second chance, a rewind, a do-over, well I want one also.  I know it sounds childish, and selfish (when there are bigger and much worse things happening in the world) but I can't change how my heart feels. Butch is stuck on "I can't believe he is gone" and Stella is very very sad.  I am not sure what breaks my heart worse, knowing Sammer is gone or watching Stella suffer.  Its true how in one minute your whole life changes.  I always believed we would have Sammer much longer in our lives.  Stella has lost her guardian, her griffen, her gargoyle.  Sammer has been with Stella Rose since she was 6 months old and she is looking all over for him.  I thought if I took her back out to see his grave she would realize that he lives there now, but so far nothing has worked.  Tomorrow is the first day she will be alone, and I am worried about her.  Thank you all so much for your kind comments.  Isn't it funny (and wonderful) that I haven't met any of you but yet you took the time to let us know you care.  I think my friends here are afraid to call and check on us since it happened cos I must be weird about how much I care about our furfamily...I don't know. 


  1. I just have no words. I wish I knew how to make things better.

  2. My heart has been heavy all week worrying about you and little Stella Rose. I am so, so sorry, but words don't make the heartache go away, and I know... it happened to us, too. It just takes one minute, and there are no "Groundhog Days" where it's concerned. My thoughts are with you.

  3. You are not weird for how much you care. I think it is weird when people don't care and don't know the love that can be between a dog and a person, that's weird. We have lifted you all up in our prayers every day. I hope some peace and comfort envelops you. We will continue with our thoughts and prayers and if you need something you let us know.

  4. Momma Deb, if your weird than us, your extended blogger family is weird too. Lets all be weird together! Been thinking and praying for your family all weekend! Will say extra prayers of peace and comfort over you, Butch, and Stella Rose tomorrow. Hugs, Pearl & Otis

  5. Howdy Deb, our old girl Kara (Cocker Spaniel) grieved for two weeks after we lost our two great danes (at different times) and then she bounced back. We too were very worried about her but she was fine. I hope this gives you a little comfort. We have had you in our thoughts. Thanks for sharing the fun times we enjoyed with Rory's 'brother' Sammy. I just loved it. If you are weird about your furfamily, then looks like we in blogville are all the same! Hugs to you all. Love Carol (and Stella and Rory)

  6. We too have been thinking about you and Stella Rose. It is wonderful how this blog community rallys around each other in times of need. It is what drew me to it - people as crazy about their furkids as I am. So go ahead and lean on us, we will be there for you.
    praying for you,
    Linda & the "kids"

  7. Your feelings are totally natural and I understand completely. "Talk" it out with us here anytime you need to. Keeping you all in our prayers.

  8. Deb,
    Wesa love you and Miss Stella Rose. You are in our thoughts and prayers. To let you in on a little secret, our mamas are more upset when the furbabies before us'uns arrived died than when any human died. Theysa say that will be the same way for us'uns when it is our turn...which they say better not be for a very long time.
    Much Luvums,
    The Slimmer Puggums
    George, Gracie, Toby, Lily, & Mimi

  9. We understand how you feel. We wish there was do over days too.
    My heart breaks for Stella and all of you.
    I wish there was something that could help, but there isn't.
    You are not weird. You know what true unconditional love is,, and your neighbors just don't get it.
    We send you love,,,, so much love, and continue to gather around you in blog love.

  10. We are so sorry for you and we know today must be really hard. Your friends probably just think you need some space. I am sure they care but do not know how to help. Take care.
    Best wishes Molly

  11. We think about your and yours every single day and the tear continue to flow. Yes, Blogville is a wonderful place and we are all FAMILY! And this FAMILY knows that our little ones are our lives. We share in your pain and our heart is still breaking over Sammer. Stella Rose, we would smother you with more love and kisses sweetie if we were there. But with the love we send you across the miles, I hope in some small way it helps.

    Lily Belle & Muffin

  12. We were just going to pop back and ask how you were all doing, then we saw your new post. Our hearts break for you. I can only imagine what you are going through.When something like this happens for no reason,it makes it all the worst. If you lose your loved one, through illness and it's a way where they don't suffer, you can get your head around that but this is different. Give Stella a big hug from us, and we are thinking of you. xx00xx

    Mollie and Alfie

  13. When you need it, we're all with you, giving you a big hug. We thought of you all weekend and are sending an abundance of love.

    Meredith & Scarlet

  14. You're not weird, you're a dog lover! It's so hard to lose our family members, even if they happen to have fur and paws. I know Sammer is watching over Stella from the Bridge. It'll take her a while to adjust, but just give her lots of love and snuggles.

  15. A million times over you're not weird about the love you feel for them. You know Stella needs you just as much as you need her right now. That love will help you heal. We are all here for you.

    Jenn & the girls

  16. Stella will be OK, Deb, she will look to you for comfort and support and you both will wind up supporting each other through this painful time. You and Stella will stay in our prayers!

    Gampy and Gammy

  17. It's stranger to me when people don't care. I'm sorry it hurts so badly - I know it does. But it's because of your love for your little ones. Let your tears flow - but also remember Stella will take cues from you. You have to be strong and upbeat for her.
    Bon Courage - and God's blessings,

  18. Dear Aunty Deb, Uncle Butch & my dearest friend Stella.

    My heart hurts for you. I want you to know that.

    I want Stella to be brave and not afraid to be on her own, I want her to know that I am with her always. I want her to know that I will protect her no matter how far away you are from our house.

    Aunty Deb & Uncle Butch. My momma crys for you, she knows how painful losing a furbaby is. I want you to know that Stella will always miss both Trud and Sammer, but she will smile again for the love of you both. You have to be brave and not afraid too, but if you need me, I will be to protect you also.

    Your friend, Rexi Dunn.

  19. We all know what grieving this kind of loss feels like, is all. Huge hugs to you all from Tulsa. Have you gotten your box yet?

  20. The mom here- Team Beaglebratz is new to you. We were just doing a little search and came across your blog. I am so sorry for such a sad loss. My oldest Beagle, Shiloh, likes to dig out under the back fence sometimes then wanders the neighborhood looking for rabbits (at least he hasn't found any yet but not for lack of trying) We have some heavy car traffic and that is what I worry about the most since Beagles pay attention only to the scent and not what is about them. Like Sammer and Stella Rose - Shasta(my youngest even tho is 6 now) has been around Shiloh since she was 8 weeks - I worry alot about her when Shiloh crosses the Bridge which I pray is years away yet but you never know. One of my curses is that I have a very vivid mind - my mind can replay what your tragic moment must have been like - I aam just so sorry for you and your family - both two and four leggers. Our dogs are resilient - they will come thru as you all will. And I feel sorry for your friends because they don't understand the bond between humans and their furry four legged companions - it is your friends loss.

    Go in peace sweet Sammer - my mind lets me see you running and having so much fun in those green fields beyond the Rainbow Bridge.

    Prayers and hugs to you all during this sad time.